week 2- no pictures

  the past two weeks have been crazy

[[i can't believe he's already two weeks already]]

i've been trying to write in my journal to keep a record for baby anthony

...but typing is so much easier and faster than writing

here's what's happened so far

after i was released from the i went straight to my parent's house

they said they were going to "take care of me" haha

they did, and i'm so grateful that they did

but i kept finding myself not feeling well rested

it's so weird that once you get married, your small apartment feels more like home

it also didn't help that ron was in provo and we were in slc

so i decided to come back to provo after 2 days 

but it was good that we went back to provo

because anthony's bilirubin level's were elevating 

it seemed like every day it increased by 2 levels

so our doctor called and said that it would be best if he went to the hospital and put him under some lights

being a first time mom, i was nervous that it was something more serious

we got to the hospital and they gave us our own room

so in my mind, i thought-- there's got to be something really wrong with him!

but no they just gave us our own room

the worse part about the whole experience was when they wanted to put an IV in him

the nurses wanted to make sure he was hydrated

so they put one in his foot

it was so sad to see something so small have such a big needle in him

then the nurses said that they need to draw blood to know his blood counts

i thought the nurses were going to prick his heels 

[[ because that's what they've done to check his bilirubin levels before ]]

nope.

they pricked him so much!

they pricked both his arms, hands, legs, and then his forehead!!!!

can you believe it??? 

poor guy was screaming and crying

and there was nothing i could do

i guess i could have told them that i didn't feel comfortable having them prick his head

but they kept on telling me that they needed to get blood

since he was dehydrated blood wasn't coming out

[[ honestly i'm not 100% sure why blood wasn't coming. they explained it, but i wasn't paying attention]]

i tried so hard not to cry and not let his cry bother me

but i broke down in the bathroom when he just started to scream

i saw tears rolling down his face for the first time

and it totally broke my heart

i didn't like the fact that i was completely helpless

i couldn't do anything for my baby

it was the worst experience i've even been through   

i hope i never have to go through that again

the thing that got my so angry was that i told the nurse that he bleeds well on his heel

so prick him there and you'll get your blood sample

and she said that she wanted it from a vein

but after they failed multiple time

they ended up getting the blood sample from the heel

that just pissed me off

they should have listened to me in the first place

it was the worse experience and hardest for me

by the next day, i could tell baby anthony was exhausted

so i went home and spoiled him

i didn't even put him down

i just hugged and kissed the heck out of him 

haha

he probably didn't like the kissing and hugging part

but i sure did :)

 now he's eating and sleeping so good!

he's such a good baby

on our 2 week check-up 

he gained 7 oz!

so he's 8 lbs and 1 oz

and he grew 1 inch 

so 21 inches long

his umbilical cord on his belly button fell off yesterday 

so he was able to take his first bath

he looked soooo cute 

haha

i think he loved it. he was so calm

    

 here's just few things that's changed this week:

• he outgrew newborn diapers and now is a size 1 
• he's starting to smile randomly
• he feeds better [[before he couldn't latch on very well]]  
• he loves bath