changes

i dono why but i got the urge to write in our blog
its been awhile since i've written here
i suck at blogging... i thought i was going to be better since i'm married now
anyway...i'm at the library studying away for my finals and i got a text from my brother, who's leaving to the MTC july 27th, when i started going to school in rexburg. i thought about it for awhile and it was only last year that i've been going to school here.
i swear it feels like its been waaaaaaaaay longer than just a year ago i moved to rexburg to go to school...
so many things have changed since a year ago
last year i was in a lost, miserable, and unhappy relationship with a guy who was six years older than me.
i just felt stuck. not only did i feel stuck in my relationship but with myself.
i didn't like what i going to school for (accounting). i basically forced myself to think that everything in life that i'm doing was what i wanted in my life. i kept telling myself that i'm happy, but why did i feel like it was forced.

i remember one day i got in a huge fight with my mom where it got to the point where i didn't answer any of her calls and wasn't on speaking terms with her (which never happened before). it gave me time to think about my life. was being with this guy i was dating worth losing my relationship with my mom? i didn't talk or ask for advice. i wanted to take time just to myself. no one to lean on. no one to talk to. only me. the 3 weeks i didn't talk to my mom and gave myself time to think totally changed my life around.

when i decided what i wanted in my life i wanted to change my life to make me truly happy. i needed someone who was strong in the gospel and someone i can respect. i couldn't be with that person i was dating if i wanted to change my life the way i wanted. he wasn't the right one for me.

i'm so thankful and grateful for the guidance i got from my heavenly father who was looking after me and letting me know what i needed in order for me to gain eternal happiness. for the first time in my life i didn't care what people thought about me. i knew what i needed to do to gain that eternal happiness.

heavenly father sent me his angels to help me to change my life around. he sent me ron who was ended being the love of my life, my eternal companion, and my supporter. he helped me to start a life i wanted. he showed me what true love was. he's everything that i wanted in my husband. he's one of the greatest blessings i've been blessed with. i can't live without him and i can't love anyone more than him. another angel that heavenly father sent me was my old roommate lauren who supported and loved me for who i was. never once did she ever judge me. she was always loving and there for me whenever i needed her. lauren is someone i can always trust.

i can't believe how much i have changed in the past year. i've been so blessed since i've turned my heart to my heavenly father. he promised us that when we turn our hearts to him, he will always give us blessings. i am a true believer and testify that this statement is true. i've been blessed with amazing friends who are an amazing example to me. i'm so grateful for angie+spencer, melissa+nicky, and lauren+david who continually shows us what true love is!

i've been so blessed!! i'm sry if this entry is a little cheesy or too emo! i just felt like i needed to show my appreciation and love i have for everyone!!